Tuesday, August 10, 2010


I checked my Woopra stats the other day and noticed that there are still a few people checking in here from time to time. And I do appreciate that. But I should have made it more clear in my last post that I really don't have anything left to say. This blog was started for so many reasons, but at its heart it became a celebration of my relationship with Max ─ a way to collect and preserve memories of the time I spent with my little boy.

Now that he's gone, it feels wrong to write anything here. Not that I have anything to write about. The few smiles that cross my lips now are for the benefit of others. When I laugh, I worry that everyone can hear the utter lack of joy behind it.

If I do decide to start blogging again, I'll pass the word through the underground grapevine to let y'all know.

Thanks for reading, though. I wish you could have all known Max Bear in person.

He was truly something special.


  1. You do what you need to do my friend... and if blogging is something that takes the back burner so be it... but I'm gonna keep checking in... one can hope ;)

    You have shared wonderful things about your Max Bear <3 And I feel the need to say that I am sure there are still many memories yet to share. Not saying you need to sort through them all now and start blogging them... just saying don't let them go. Don't stop finding joy in them. I hope you can see some light in your darkness friend. Thinking of ya...

  2. You're really not gonna blog here anymore, are you? :( I will miss it.

  3. By chance that you might actually see this I wanted to let you know that I'm still thinking about ya. Hope your heart is healing some...